First of all, I’d like to apologize for being gone for over a year.
The plan was to keep writing and to continue on with the last post, but, I grew nervous about being vulnerable and I stopped writing.
So here I am, back to this discomfort called vulnerability. I am truthfully excited to be here.
Let’s address the biggest change, shall we? I’ve changed the blog name from “The Beautiful Wonder” to “Known Resilience.”
I explained the name change already, but to quickly summarize things, I now have a set plan for this blog and for my ministry and things are now in full swing!
“Known Resilience” and I are going places and I’m so excited.
Now that we have cleared the air, let’s get back to where we were in the last blog post. The last time you read, I talked about having a crush on someone from my bible study group. Just for some important context, he and I had never spoken when I had this crush.
I have an update, y’all.
In September, my crush and I spoke for the first time and our conversation came and went. I’m not exaggerating when I say that it lasted for all of five seconds (until one of his friends grabbed his attention) and then we never spoke again.
We stopped messaging each other and now he has a girlfriend (she and I are entirely too similar, it’s honestly scary.) To be honest, I’m still a little sad about it, but I’ll be fiine.
Now the question remains, what is my relationship status? I am single and waiting on the Lord like I have been for the last two years.
Besides being (mostly) content in singleness, what else am I doing?
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I found a new hobby! I took spin class seven months ago and fell so in love with it that I decided that I want to become certified to teach. I got my spin certification exactly three months after taking my first spin class. I also had a chance to take a spin class with one of my favorite Youtubers who owns her own rhythmic spin studio in my area. On my birthday I woke up bright and early to go spin. Have I mentioned I LOVE spin? It feels like you’re flying and the rush is indescribable.
I haven’t started teaching yet and I’m not sure where I’d like to teach, I’m in between two spin studios.
It’s wild how God places new passions in us. Y’all, this is coming from someone who said she hated exercise.
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I’ve actually been nourishing my body.
I found that in my recovery journey that food is still hard for me at times. Am I a vegetarian today? Am I vegan today? I’ve spent my whole life trying to avoid certain foods out of fear that I’d gain weight. My restrictions would include all sweets, dairy, meat, and anything deemed unhealthy.
Recently I threw out all food rules and I’m deciding to eat intuitively. I’m allowed to have a cookie, a burger, salad, an acai bowl, etc. as long as I am fueling my body with what it needs.
I’m no longer restricting and starving myself, only to end up in a binge later.
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I’ve been healing, mentally, physically, and emotionally. Who I am now is probably my most favorite version of myself, currently.
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I believe that’s it for any new life updates. Life is good here and I am honestly grateful.
There’s more to come. I hope you stick around for this journey.
With love,
Javannah Melissa E.
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